bugs in my eyes

warning: mushy, cheesy, watcallit post ahead. dont read. laugh, criticise or judge if you want, but dont tell me. it might sound stupid & i might cringe at this in the future but this is how i feel right now, however dumb or wrong it may seem. this is my therapy & for remembrance ;Þ (ps: im sober btw)

whenever i think of you saying bugs in my eyes, i’ll smile at your cuteness. your attempt to make us both laugh. i wish you were still here with me. i wish you didnt have to go. i wish i can still hear you call me baby. i wish i can still call you that. i do wish that you are mine. i wish i was your only baby. but then if you really were, i dont know if i could…

i wish you’re still here to cuddle me when i sleep. i wish i can still cuddle you when you are sleeping. i wish i can still look at you when you’re sleeping. i wish i can still see you, touch you, hug you, kiss you. i miss your smell, your scent. i wish you’re here to massage me, to listen to my nonsense, to jaga me, to hold me, to hang out with, to smoke & drink with. i miss the times when we just hang with the homies & drink, smoke, watch footie, without a care in the world. i even miss the times when we did assignments together. when we went to PD. i miss the house that became my second home for 3 months.

i still think of your room, your bed, your bathroom, your clothes, the first time we met, i won’t forget that. i won’t forget everything. i’ve had one of my best times with you. i wish i can still call & text you whenever i want to. i wish i can still hear your voice, your laugh.

whenever i listen to certain songs, i’ll think of you. many things remind me of you. you’re still on my mind.

dont worry baby, i won’t go Sean Kingston on you. can’t do that to you or my loved ones. (though i do wonder if i ever do that, will it change anything?)

i know it’ll get better in time. dont worry about me.

i meant all that i said, however fleeting the moment is.

i’ll always xiang ni.


6 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Anonymous
    Jul 03, 2008 @ 16:50:00

    yuhua, pls stay strong~.. u knw i will always be there for u. i knw it’s nt easy for u at the moment but pls remember that u still have me to love you. hugz..regards,Your hottest fren ever


  2. yook hwa
    Jul 03, 2008 @ 17:26:00

    hottest fren ever…mien, i was wondering who commented til i read tat. hahahaa. yeah i know. i love u too, hottie!! i think im ok-ing now. my emoness comes & goes. mien, i takut weekends & nites. mesti tak biasa…take care k & cya soon!


  3. radiounit
    Jul 06, 2008 @ 11:44:00

    r u sure u’re sober???


  4. yook hwa
    Jul 06, 2008 @ 16:04:00

    mien, i wish i wasnt sober now. damn malufying ok *blush* but hmph, berani buat, berani mengaku. & i still meant wat i said ;p


  5. ≈Pë¦ Xzàŋ≈
    Jul 09, 2008 @ 17:23:00

    babi…all u need is px and malibu.AhHAhAHHAhAh!!!let’s sing Yellow Submarine!!! that was the song i sang the last i was super emofied…i was a happy gal after that!! YAY!!!


  6. yook hwa
    Jul 10, 2008 @ 04:48:00

    yes yes! & vodka. teehee 😉 yellow submarine, yellow submarine. i like Help too! & dancing in the moonlight & jamie cullum’s mindtrick. i shud download mika’s big girl. heeehheeee ;p


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