i’m tired of not getting what i want so much

*curse alert! there may be plenty of cursing (by your standards, not mine) in the following entry* ;Þ

i’ve just been reminded by a friend that stereophonics, oasis, franz ferdinand, etc are going to the bangkok rock festival. i wanted to go so much when i first found out but with classes and financial constraints, i gave up on the idea of going. but then, i keep thinking that its such a wonderful, once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, that i’ll die before it ever comes again. and then there’s the fact that its on a weekend, feb 18 & 19, i couldnt possibly miss it. ah, but i’ve now researched the location of the fest, to find affordable accommodations. i only came up with eastin lakeside hotel. eastin?! one night costs 2500baht. fuck. somemore its at (i get the impression la) a new, high-end lakeside neighbourhood, Muang Thong Thani. aih, guess i have to give up it again. i should be glad that, at least, radiohead, keane, a perfect circle & my other favourite bands aren’t coming. i just hope if & when they come, they dont bypass this country. fucking hate this. hate living where only stupid, lame-ass boybands & so-called wannabe ‘punk’ bands who prey on dumbass, gullible pubescent girls, come & lip-synch. tiu la!

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on another note, i’m also constantly reminded by friends that my 22nd (gasp, horrors!) birthday is coming. not that i’m hinting or anything but its been on my mind since months ago. the anxiety of turning a year older started late last year, i was afraid of becoming a grown-up (still do). it just seem like such a big leap from 21 to 22. it seems so old, far removed from the (not so) carefree days of teenhood. bigger responsibilities, bigger worries, more pressures. but as i now i approach the impending day (in less than 2 weeks time), i say screw it. i’m gonna embrace it. i still feel & think young (& hopefully look young too, ehehehe)

ok, recently i’m also reminded (i’m constantly reminded of stuff, aren’t i?) of my single status. i don’t know why i don’t have a boyfriend & i’m tired of thinking & answering questions about it. no prospects (ie. intellectual, like-minded, non-egoistical chauvinist, hot [a plus but not necessarily] guys) around = no dating. so again, i say screw it & just let it be

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3 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Lynnie
    Jan 19, 2006 @ 09:01:00

    babe! 2500baht is only rm250! go for it! lol

    Reply

  2. ≈Pë¦ Xzàŋ≈
    Jan 19, 2006 @ 12:55:00

    yookie…I LOVE U!!getting too much of brokeback. but i’m not gay thou. i just love you!! MUAH!! WAHAHAHA

    Reply

  3. Anonymous
    Jan 21, 2006 @ 15:03:00

    erm..reminding me tooo?u ah,always bring up sensitive issues.:)embrace being 22 la…!-ah lau-

    Reply

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